Don't Call Me Lazy

I noticed yesterday that I was getting slightly mutinous about doing so much work lately on the production run of t-shirts for the shop. I was up until 1:30 Am on Fri night and spent a good part of Sat and Sun on it as well. It was time to give myself some playtime...

So I pulled out the supplies to work on this out on the porch.

Sticks and Stones doncha know...

I've been wanting to do this for a while now, I like them all grouped up like this.

Hard to see here but the sticks are worm carved too, strange runic writing etched into the surfaces.

I've been learning lately that if I don't listen to that little voice inside my head that is saying "enough already!" what happens is that nothing at all gets done, no work and no fun, and THAT makes me crazy.

So today was declared an actual holiday for me, no agenda. I got up and wandered around my garden taking pictures.

Here is the rose I planted a month ago making very good progress...

Blue Flags in bloom

A peony ready to burst, last year these same flowers bloomed and that same night some deer ate them up like a fat man at an all you can eat shrimp buffet, I wanted to cry. I moved the plants closer to the house ...hopefully that will keep the deer away...

Weiglia in bloom, it attracts hummingbirds!

Not too surprising once I had gotten that out of my system I didn't have a problem setting up all of the paraphenalia for a quick photo shoot of some new products. To finish out the day I will be meeting a friend for a bike ride this evening. Perhaps later tonight I will work on a production run of scarves, but then again maybe not... I will see how I feel when the time comes.

Learning to lay off of myself and just let go and play a little is not something that comes easily to me. I'm so afraid of being thought of as "lazy". Its funny though if I push too hard for too long I grind to a halt. Suddenly nothing happens and even though its not actual laziness it sure looks like it. (far more mentally exhausting though) Its so important to give myself that time and permission to just screw around, it releases something within me and makes me feel content and refreshed, and from there I can get up and get back to the "work " at peace with myself.