Its funny how recognizing that I'm experiencing some new dynamics in other areas of my life, and realizing that its understandable that it may be difficult to maintain a focus on artwork at the moment made the idea of actually doing something just a little easier tonight. I relaxed and followed an idle thought or two. No pressure, just a few minutes of messing around.
I noticed something else tonight, another aspect of all or nothing thinking...It gets difficult to start again sometimes because I think
"oh no! I haven't done anything for awhile... the next thing I do better be really good just to make up for lost time"
Thinking that of course sort of ratchets up the pressure to perform, which makes it just a little harder to start
Then if I don't have all the energy necessary to get started...
I repeat the whole process again and maybe again, each time ratcheting the pressure up just little more.
Mmmmm... self defeating?
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