Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Easing back in.

early autumn  grape leaf
Depression is a hell of a thing

spider on button bush
I don't know how other people experience it,
I withdraw, I medicate, I lose touch.

fungus and lichen, oak stump
I lose people, sometimes forever...  
and that is sad too.

 eastward long view
It's not relaxed, just anxiety, endless and paralyzing.

last of the lilies

It rises like a wave, and I tread water until it recedes.
Sometimes that can take years.

wild aster in the poison ivy
I learn how to treat it, I medicate it, I get some help (I'm fortunate)

wild aster
Eventually I start to wade out.
Sometimes that can take years too.


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10 comments:

  1. The Inside StoriSeptember 24, 2016 at 7:09 AM

    I’m so sorry……you’ve been missed and I hope your lovely work and spirit will be popping up again real soon in my RSS reader!!

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  2. micisip.blogspot.comSeptember 24, 2016 at 10:48 AM

    Beautiful photos! Welcome back. :)

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  3. alsokaizenSeptember 26, 2016 at 7:12 PM

    Thank you both! Its good to be back again :)

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  4. KaySeptember 30, 2016 at 6:56 AM

    Yep. Welcome back to life. It's still here, surprise, surprise!

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  5. AnonymousOctober 3, 2016 at 6:14 PM

    Glad you're looping back around. I have missed you and the nests.

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  6. neki desuOctober 10, 2016 at 6:26 AM

    yes, i have missed you. and am very glad to have you back and feeling life again.

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  7. grace Forrest~MaestasOctober 16, 2016 at 7:36 PM

    i rested softly at this Place for a long time...went back and there are the
    tribes...i felt a very almost imperceptible humm
    Thank you for these things that are antidotes to so much else, and
    i come away with that thought, how making, known or unknown, makes the antidotes....

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  8. alsokaizenOctober 16, 2016 at 7:56 PM

    -hi neki I'm coming around again :) its still a bit random...
    -hi grace, I'm trying to listen to that hum and follow it as I can.

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  9. SaskiaOctober 20, 2016 at 11:25 AM

    depression is really tough; my brother suffers from depression on an all too regular basis, our father, very late in life experienced two episodes himself, it was hard, for all of us, fortunately he seems to have recovered, more or less; am grateful you are here and have shared this

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  10. alsokaizenOctober 21, 2016 at 7:43 PM

    the illness does seem to run in families sometimes, it does in mine too
    there are things that seem to help activity, meditation, meds, and kindness...

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