churn

dervish

"Why would you choose that??"
this is an exact quote from my childhood best friend the other day
her response to me telling her that the word I "chose" for this year was churn.
(really the words always choose me, or maybe we meet each other, as though I'm asked to dance and I accept)

I guess it does seem to have some negative connotations from a certain perspective...

its the only one that fits . 

The world is dark and ugly right now and I have been immersed in it in a 'can't look away from it' type of way, 

I feel hyper aware of environmental destruction, both global/abstract and personal/intimate.

At home our jobs are insecure and the anticipation of that change...
are we fucked or free? both? 

bombarded at all levels

here is the thing though, sometimes I start to feel like butter

brutally transformed

churned