Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Easing back in.

early autumn  grape leaf
Depression is a hell of a thing

spider on button bush
I don't know how other people experience it,
I withdraw, I medicate, I lose touch.

fungus and lichen, oak stump
I lose people, sometimes forever...  
and that is sad too.

 eastward long view
It's not relaxed, just anxiety, endless and paralyzing.

last of the lilies

It rises like a wave, and I tread water until it recedes.
Sometimes that can take years.

wild aster in the poison ivy
I learn how to treat it, I medicate it, I get some help (I'm fortunate)

wild aster
Eventually I start to wade out.
Sometimes that can take years too.


Wednesday, February 3, 2016

Still Thinking


Nest 20
 Nesting has been with me for a long time now, 3 or 4 years at least. Sometimes it has shown up as art but it has also been a large part of my activities. I find myself sorting all the strands of my life, trying to find the shape of it. What do I want it to be?
Nest 21
Looking again at Tribes and Icons
more sorting 
trying to understand their stories, who they are 

Wednesday, January 27, 2016

Nest sketches

My attention has been elsewhere
I'm still focused inward
still thinking about nests
sketching them out with what I find at hand
Nest 13

Nest 14

Nest 15

Nest 16

Nest 17

Nest 18

Nest 19

Saturday, December 12, 2015

This week

Nest #12?
 Some time was spent on nest construction, I'm trying to experiment with materials and learn some construction methods.
Gypsy Moths!
 I spent some time hunting gypsy moth eggs. I know it is a futile battle but I'm hoping to spare "my" trees from destruction next year
Killing Gypsy Moths

I started to play with resisted lines on stones.
I'm not sure what happened to this pic on upload but I kind of like the result.

Charcoal experiment




Thursday, December 10, 2015

Explore

Old orchard 
So having just begun a new year  I have chosen a word for myself
Explore
it is a doing word as opposed to a being word and I think I need that right now
to be doing stuff
not judging
just trying
just seeing where that will take me
I like the word, it encompasses possibilties and yet it can be applied to even the most ordanary experience to transform it
this should be good

Tuesday, December 8, 2015

Sunday, December 6, 2015

Fall texture


"Just stop thinking, worrying, looking over your shoulder wondering, doubting, fearing, hurting, hoping for some easy way out, struggling, grasping,…Stop it and just DO!…
Don’t worry about cool, make your own uncool. Make your own, your own world. If you fear, make it work for you – draw & paint your fear and anxiety…
You must practice being stupid, dumb, unthinking, empty. Then you will be able to DO!…
Try to do some BAD work – the worst you can think of and see what happens but mainly relax and let everything go to hell – you are not responsible for the world – you are only responsible for your work – so DO IT. And don’t think that your work has to conform to any preconceived form, idea or flavor. It can be anything you want it to be…

I know that you (or anyone) can only work so much and the rest of the time you are left with your thoughts. But when you work or before your work you have to empty you [sic] mind and concentrate on what you are doing. After you do something it is done and that’s that. After a while you can see some are better than others but also you can see what direction you are going. I’m sure you know all that. You also must know that you don’t have to justify your work – not even to yourself."
                                                                                                                         Eva Hesse