Wednesday, November 30, 2016

Darkly Lit

It was bright between the clouds and coldwindy but I went anyhow
gleaning stones again.


I'm thinking about community 
what it means to be part of one
how one defines their own 
I read this 
its a good read. it asks questions and indicates directions to focus on. 

Monday, November 14, 2016

What is Next

what IS next
I went to my first ever political meeting on Saturday.
I have some big changes approaching in the near future.
Most are not of my choosing.
Tonight I see a way forward.
I feel brave


I have been entangled in recent events for months now
since Tuesday I have been sick, raging, sad, disappointed, sleepless and bleak.
A kind of grim hurricane
So much was lost. It hurts.
I think its hooks are out for the moment and I'm trying not to get dragged back in
Today was a little better and I'm trying to choose the things that put me back into myself again.
I sent off a volunteer form to the Nature Conservancy. I find the woods to be healing to my spirit.
I think I will go to one of the local preserves on Sunday
Pride and Prejudice helped last night and so did the second vol of the Neapolitan Series
I hope to sleep tonight so now I will go and do some yoga
Deep Breaths

Friday, October 21, 2016

long ago deserts

Distance has no meaning in the desert-not if the rider knows the way of things, the points of similarity between this and that, the places where the sky can fold.
                                                                                                          -seanan mcguire
                                                                                                                     In the Desert Like a Bone
New Mexico
I like the idea of a sky folding...


I'm at my best when I am

I'm at my best when I go

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

exploring new worlds

making time to make stuff.
Trying out some new techniques, new ideas...
while I explored
I found the full moon on the dye rack today!

Monday, October 17, 2016

Making time for Medicine


"i come away with that thought, how making, known or unknown, makes the antidotes...." ~ grace

I've been spending some time Making lately, Making time to Make stuff.
expanding my vocabulary,
exploring and experimenting, as I do...
a different form of medicine
good for what ails me

Sunday, October 16, 2016


remaining bits
We had a Gypsy moth attack this year. The caterpillars ate the trees down to bare twigs by mid June.
Preferring the pines and oaks, they got to the maples last, leaving bits of the leaves behind.
My little Japanese maple is making the most of its shreds of finery.  

I seem to be trying to go in forty different directions at once. I never am sure of where to start, everything seems equally important. There are some changes looming ahead and I want to meet them on my terms. I just wish I had a better description of what those terms are. Its hard to trust that this will sort itself out if I can just trust the process of sorting it out.

Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Easing back in.

early autumn  grape leaf
Depression is a hell of a thing

spider on button bush
I don't know how other people experience it,
I withdraw, I medicate, I lose touch.

fungus and lichen, oak stump
I lose people, sometimes forever...  
and that is sad too.

 eastward long view
It's not relaxed, just anxiety, endless and paralyzing.

last of the lilies

It rises like a wave, and I tread water until it recedes.
Sometimes that can take years.

wild aster in the poison ivy
I learn how to treat it, I medicate it, I get some help (I'm fortunate)

wild aster
Eventually I start to wade out.
Sometimes that can take years too.

Wednesday, February 3, 2016

Still Thinking

Nest 20
 Nesting has been with me for a long time now, 3 or 4 years at least. Sometimes it has shown up as art but it has also been a large part of my activities. I find myself sorting all the strands of my life, trying to find the shape of it. What do I want it to be?
Nest 21
Looking again at Tribes and Icons
more sorting 
trying to understand their stories, who they are 

Wednesday, January 27, 2016

Nest sketches

My attention has been elsewhere
I'm still focused inward
still thinking about nests
sketching them out with what I find at hand
Nest 13

Nest 14

Nest 15

Nest 16

Nest 17

Nest 18

Nest 19