Friday, November 21, 2008

Shifting Gears

For the next few weeks I will be focusing on the holidays. Production, events, celebration, and visiting will effectively consume my time so there will be less of it for experiments and development than usual. Its just the nature of the beast.

I've been thinking a great deal about what I want to focus on after all that is done. In the last couple of years I have been exploring (in a very tentative way) some of the options that I can follow. I have watched as others around me have committed to new paths and zoomed off in pursuit of their goals while I dither about uncommitted unsure and unfocused.

I get that if I want something different I will have to really focus with laser-like intensity on a single goal and really follow through on it.

Even when it gets tough.

Even when I don't see much hope or I feel unsure of myself

Even when it looks like a great deal more fun to do something else

Even when I feel or am rejected

I have been looking at the stuff I like doing (designing, creating one special piece,experimenting)The stuff I don't like (production runs that are too big, being tied to a product line)

My special skill set (shibori, design, conceptualization, sewing/ embroidery, drawing...)

What inspires me (nature, textiles, myths, stories, psychology, dreams, pattern...)

And my personal vision of what success consists of

I have an idea of the direction I want to pursue, it will be a great deal of work and there are a number of aspects to it that I am more than a little unsure of. In fact in some ways it scares me, however I also think that it could be more than a bit rewarding and that it capitalizes on my weird skill set. I'd like to give it a try and see what happens when I settle in for the long haul, commit and really apply myself to a goal. It might be fun...
The pic has nothing to do with any of this , I just like to put a picture with my posts and the purple attracted me!


Anonymous said...

you've got my attention.....
just head straight for it is all i can think....
sometimes i feel the same way
feeling a little overwhelmed myself at the moment-

alsokaizen said...

Tis the season for overload wheather it be food, spending, guilt or to-dos!