I had a thought today, well OK I probably had a few, but one had some worth to it.
I seem to be trying to divest myself of all the things I no longer need or use, all of the stuff that doesn't serve me at this moment in my life. I repeatedly seem drawn into "organizational" tasks here at home instead of "creative" ones. Each time I feel a bit freer but still driven to do more. I suspect I am trying to manifest in my outer life something that I desire in my inner life.
Each time I sort through my belongings, supplies, aka debris, I sort through more of the baggage that has accumulated within me too beliefs, desires wounds and joys. Slowly I am discarding the ones that no longer fit or serve. I think some people are naturally able to do this but not many. The emotional attachments that are present in objects and in beliefs make them hard to discard. I seem to have a goal of having the right stuff in my life and releasing the rest. If I look at it that way I don't feel as aggravated with myself for not being "creative"
Perhaps I am kidding myself and its all a never ending round of navel gazing but it seems I keep coming back to these activities and I'd like to believe its for a good reason.