Sunday, July 12, 2009

Repeating Until Its Right

I had a thought today, well OK I probably had a few, but one had some worth to it.

I seem to be trying to divest myself of all the things I no longer need or use, all of the stuff that doesn't serve me at this moment in my life. I repeatedly seem drawn into "organizational" tasks here at home instead of "creative" ones. Each time I feel a bit freer but still driven to do more. I suspect I am trying to manifest in my outer life something that I desire in my inner life.

Each time I sort through my belongings, supplies, aka debris, I sort through more of the baggage that has accumulated within me too beliefs, desires wounds and joys. Slowly I am discarding the ones that no longer fit or serve. I think some people are naturally able to do this but not many. The emotional attachments that are present in objects and in beliefs make them hard to discard. I seem to have a goal of having the right stuff in my life and releasing the rest. If I look at it that way I don't feel as aggravated with myself for not being "creative"

Perhaps I am kidding myself and its all a never ending round of navel gazing but it seems I keep coming back to these activities and I'd like to believe its for a good reason.

5 comments:

Anna said...

Boy, do I know how you feel! Just when I think I can purge no more, huge deposits of age-old clutter reveal themselves. It's hard to let go of things you feel emotional attached to, definitely; but sometimes you smother under the weight of them. You know I've been decluttering my spare room for a good 10 years now... someday I will see the floor again...

jude said...

letting go is so hard, but it feels so good.

alsokaizen said...

Hi Anna, Hi jude
It really does seem to form strata! and I am exploring each layer as if on an archeological dig. Every time I get through a layer I feel just a little better, just a little freer

ever jeanne said...

i've found that when the urge strikes and i clear and release things, i make space for new possibilities.

alsokaizen said...

Yup that is exactly right jeanne I seem to be driven to do just that